Coming up on an Anniversary

I know this time one year ago I was really really wrestling with the head covering thing. I wanted to. I was scared to. I wanted to talk to my priest about it, I was scared to, etc.

Water under the bridge. Have I been doing this a whole year (give or take a couple of weeks)? Wow.

Time slides on by, doesn't it.

So, how's it been? Well, it's been good for me, spiritually. There's a difference for me when I cover my head to pray, and then when I do it all the time. I really think it calls me to pray more.

It's been difficult on a "self acceptance" level. I'm finally coming to the conclusion (I'm a bit slow sometimes) that I MUST not care what others might think of me.

I have spent far too much time fretting over this or that scarf, this or that look, and whether I'm too weird. I guess I'm in the throes of laying that one down.

I always am amazed when someone writes that they've been wearing a head covering for YEARS, decades perhaps. That seems like such a long time, but I guess when you start on that path, the time slides by with one day at a time of living out your convictions and obedience.

Right now, in my life personally, I'm preparing or Holy Week (which is week after next) and looking forward to Pascha. Eastern Orthodox Pascha is the first Sunday after the first full moon following the Spring equinox which that follows the Jewish Passover. So this year, that's April 19th. Why do the west and east use different formulas for calculating the date of Easter? I'd have to look it up somewhere, but the advantage to us is that it is clearly a religious Holy Day and there's no association of silly bunnies and chickens (except perhaps roasted and on the feasting table after liturgy!). It's all about the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead.

Psalm 85 (according to the Septuagint numbering...86 according to the Masoretic text numbering) has been very meaningful to me lately: "Incline your ear, O Lord, and hear me. For I am poor and needy. Guard my soul, for I am holy; O my God, save Your servant, who hopes in You..." and so on. Good stuff.

I have a crazy day of cleaning house ahead of me today, as I have relatives coming to visit. So yay. Cleaning. God will have to give me strength, because right now all I know is that I'm over tired, and hurting. Fibromyalgia. As usual my body has such great timing.

Glory to God for all things. This day will work out, anyways.